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Saturday, March 09, 2002
3:39 PM

Knowledge which must be re-discovered is a waste of everyone's time.

Which begs the question "what constitutes knowledge?" Is it only those choice tidbits of information which the world deems useful on a grand scale - those being facts we are forced to sit and learn throughout our childhood years while we squirmed in our seats with boredom, not being able to dream up a single reson why such information could possibly be useful to us in the future - or rather is it a culmination of every little fact we know, every experience we've ever had, and every step we continue to take, all put into perspective to relate to any given situation? I put to you that it is the latter. If we take every tear we've ever shed, every scream of anger, every brief moment of passion, and look at them each individually, they tell us nothing. Someone was sad, but why? Another was happy... so what? It isn't interesting on a greater level. Yet when we look at all of those moments put together, we begin to see the bigger picture. It is no longer a single emotional snapshot captured for us to see, it is a chain reaction. We can now attempt to not only piece together why such reactions are caused, but where they will go, how they will continue, if additional triggers are set in motion.

We've since learned that our textbook facts from days of old do have some practical application in the world. But isn't this other knowledge just as practical? Yes, it is, because like other knowledge, it allows us to manipulate things. Manipulation is a very practical skill, and we've been doing it for centuries. Some do it professionally, both to help and hinder, and some do it simply for enjoyment. There are those who have learned it scholastically, and those who simply feel their way through it instinctively. Both ways have merit, and something can be learned from each. Something should be learned from each. If their knowledge is never passed on, whether it be in writing, apprenticeship, seminar, or even by gross inundation, at some point someone will have to re-discover that knowledge by trial-and-error. This should not have to happen. We now have means at our disposal which insure that no information need ever be un-discoverable should people seek it out. The more people choose to ignore those who have paved the way before, the less we will accomplish.

This brings us back to the big picture. We must also beware not to let ourselves become one-tracked. If we take a single chain of information, most commonly the latest information available to us, and try to advance with it, its perpetual existence will most likely fail because we did not take into account relative information as well. What we must do is use all of the information we have to acheive our means, every failure as well as success. We must know what not to do as well as what to do. If I am to ask a woman on the street for the time, I should say "Excuse me, do you have the time?" I should not say "Give me the time you fucking cunt." That approach has an entirely different practical application.

If you've made it with me this far, your eyes are probably a little more open after my last comment, and perhaps you're not quite sure what to think. That's good. You can't ever be sure of anything. We can make very educated attempts, and often times we will always predict correctly based on knowledge and experience, but absolute certainty is for idiots.

This journal is my charge to pass my knowledge, experiences, and visions to the future. It is to be my gift, my way of ensuring that some knowledge will not have to be re-discovered, and my part to play in filling in the big picture as it pertains to me. I grant you that while this knowledge may be practical, it will not be entirely useful to many of you. Should you still read it? That is up to you. But hear this: you don't know me. You may think you do, but how could you? Have I given you any information pertinent to me? Some, but not enough to make a guess at who I am with any solidity. I'm also willing to postulate that most of you know yourselves only slightly better. Here's your chance to learn more about me, but for that you're going to have to continue to folow this journal, and in doing so perhaps learn more about yourselves as well. If this doesn't interest you, so be it. My goal isn't to babysit you, hold your hand, and take you on a tour of all the cute places to see on the internet. It is to put disturbing images and observations before you and make you think. If that's not for you, then take your cockhole back to fantasy-land and go buy something from an online store to make yourself feel better, because I'm certainly not going to.

Friday, March 08, 2002
11:31 AM

Greetings. If you're returning, you'll notice I've made a few changes. If not, then you'll just never know what used to be.

For starters I've removed the frames. I had to make some sacrifices due to the fact that Netscape is the worst web-browser in the world, and anyone using it just needs to see the light and move on to a greater power... I.E., but I made them regardless. A few things are still screwed up with NS, but I'm not going to fix them. Deal with it.

Also, starting now, I'll be using this as a journal of sorts. If you've ever wondered what makes me tick, why do I do the horrible things I do, what motivates me to put information like this on the web, you'll find out here. It won't be pretty, I can guarantee you.

I'm also going to start featuring a "torture instrument of the week". This will be anything from a vice grip to a simple paper clip. I'm so generous I'll even give you examples of how to use such implements of pain, should you ever find yourself in a situation that requires such practices.

Now If you'll excuse me, I have pressing business to attend.

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